Pungent  legitimacy of life

Where do we start, where do we end? We start from nowhere and end in nowhere.

This is the truth. Looking back on life saying stuff like, I am going to change

this or that is obviously the most foolish thing we can do. Looking back is a lie.

The truth is that there is no back, there is no forward, there is not even a now.

We just exist. Existence is all there is. Mistakes we made have been made, they

cannot be changed. Plans for the future are unreal because the future is

uncertain.

If we have been making mistakes in our lives, the 'reasonable thing' we can do it so try and correct them. When this happens, we shrink our awareness to a block. To something that cannot be done. The more we focus on this imaginary block, the more real it gets. It gets so real that we find ourselves carrying this block, dragging it wherever we go till we finally get nailed in the coffin. Do these things makeups believe we have something concrete, something 'real', something more human to hang on to?. We came from nowhere with nothing and we will go back to nowhere with-nothing. Everything in between is something we have created.

Creation is of the mind. It is a form of self deceit to make ourselves feel good,

feel human. We are nothing, why can't we accept that fact. Why is it so much to

swallow. Worrying is a sign of You meaning something, being something, living. We

survive from the Earth, a product of the Earth. If suddenly we stop receiving

oxygen, we are all shut off, going back to nothing.

Regret is something we have because we believe in a past. The past is unknown. We

take one aspect of this so called past, distort it with our memory, and let it fit

into our "I am Important" life story. It is crap. Even this I am typing is crap. I

never chose to be alive, If I am alive and I commit suicide, its like I am running

a race and stopping in the middle. It is the inevitable. Suicide is not a choice,

it is the inevitable. We have no choice, no past, no future, no Now, no Life,

just existence. If we claim that we exist, How do we know. What is Existence. Is

there something more than this is a question that has no answer. Everything leads

to the beginning that has no start and the ending that has no end.

Everything around us is as a result of this denial, we do not want to accept this

truth. We think that whatever we 'create' would make us mean something. Where

humans not still alive before we started creating?. They still had food, water,

oxygen, sex, and sleep. Now, due to boredom and belief in purpose, we started

combining crap together creating more crap. Now we believe our crap is something

we should attain. People subjecting themselves to paper to a thing, to money. Its

just a pity. See the truth. Although we are living in a lie, a World that sends us

peacefully to our grave, with so many distractions, the truth is Nothing is what

we are.

If we can feel silence and notice when we start thinking, we can say we have

found something. All thinking is just a memory, we can not be aware of the start

of the thought. We just remember it. The same way life goes. We cannot know the

start of life, We just remember. Memory is faulty, We see what we want to see, our

sense organs are our biggest dis tractors. We see one thing and drop the rest. God,

something that cannot be defined, unknown yet has all the power. Knowing that

signifies what? If God knows all, why bother? Why care. Is it that this God will

somehow listen to us, serve us for sometime before we die. Why should he or it?

Who are we to command such attention at the expense of others. It is just a lie,

everything, every fucking thing. I am Nothing, not even a Superman nor am I a

wretched piece of crap. Absolutely Nothing.